Memories aren't meant to be forgotten

2010-01-26T10:02:00.003+08:00

You have no clue how much its killing me..

2010 started on a bad start..and its still going on.

2009 wasn't that great either...my life feels like its falling apart and i don't know how long i can endure it all.

thanks phyllicia for always being there for me. but you know as well as i do that its not as easy as we thought it was.

2008-11-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

RED CAMP 5 has OFFICIALLY BEGAN and day 1 is over!!!i'm real glad to be a spartan! haha.. PEEPS... U GUYS WERE AWESOME!!! though it was a pretty long day. it went well and we all made new friends and stuff.

oh a sour note...things are happening all too fast. my friend's body conditions, sch work, family, red camp, its all piling up and up and up.. and like the saying goes " the higher you rise, the harder you fall".

and i saw that person again!!gosh... those who understand what i mean. i'm totally creeped out. i am literally scared of that person. i have nothing personally against that person but please... i dont even know you.. please watch your distance.

i pray you will be fine. no matter what happens, you know you have us. i know its really tough on you with all that you're going through but be brave and dont give up. i know you can do it !

i got so much i need to rant about but its not nice and i'm totally shagged haha.. like seriously but the awesome thing is, cant sleep just yet cause..................i got to prepare for my ITB presentation tomorrow !!! wow right ? :) so everyone is gathering at shan's hse to do the powerpoint. no slp peeps haha....sucks but what to do. work comes first

2008-11-19T01:50:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey... omg... red camp is in like what 6 HOURS!!!!SUPER FAST!!! shan and i had an awesome night haha...

after skit practice in school, we went back to her place and from there, went took the keys and i drove the car out hahaa... cool man!! my second day after i get my license and i'm totally happy..after 10 years of waiting!! finally.. so people who live near sengkang, let me know.. i will intro u to my intructor who is seriously very good...

anyway, we drove to holland v and then went to clementi to pick up vic just for a drive to have prata!! haha..then we drove back!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT RIGHT???hahaha

and now we're watching 'the covenant' a totally awesome show with totally HOT GUYS!!! the main guy in the middle is damn hot and his body is damn awesome! shan and i going GAH GAH over him!!omg.. go watch the show on HBO!... trust me, u wont regret! :)

2008-11-17T23:28:00.003+08:00

HEY ALL YOU PEEPS OUT THERE!!!! RED CAMP 5 IS GONNA BE HERE IN LIKE 2 DAYS!!! CANT WAIT!

because of that, i havent been bloggin much at all. real sorry for that :)

even now i dont really have time so i'm just gonna say 1 simple thing that i've been wanting to say for like 10years....

OMG OMG OMG........ I CAN FINALLY OFFICALLY DRIVE!!I PASSED MY PT THIS MORNING!AWESOME RIGHT??HAHAHA

Overdue nonsense!

2008-11-01T22:48:00.004+08:00

hahaha..ok i was suppose to post those long long ago but i've been soo lazy. one was shanya and the other is when i was about to go to the airport in perth haha.. ya.

Shan is stitch.wav - shanya

Vic laughter.wav - Tan family & yve and vic

My WONDERFUL week nights

2008-11-01T21:28:00.014+08:00

On wednesday night after school, shan and i went for kanye west's concert at the indoor stadium and we got free beer though its tiger haha... and cause we need to use the toilet... we drank in the toilet as well.. yuck i know but it was so funny..

You see!!! haha.. funny right? drinking in the toilet(yellow liquid).. haha.. We watched the opening acts and then there was a long pause to wait for kanye to come out so shan and i got abit bored while waiting haha.. we sat SUPER NEAR the stage which was totally awesome. SEE....close right? :)

OH GOSH... i look so red!! shan and i jumped and danced and all so it was really warm and i turn pink easily!! really..really easily.

Once the concert was over, we started to head off and we just want to say THANK YOU to our dear friend and stadium usher for the awesome concert haha :)

the Wonderful FAMILY!

On thursday, after taking pictures, all the ambassadors headed for the alumni for dinner. it was really fun. we got to talk to the people we havent met in awhile and see old faces which we havent seen in so long cause some of them were very busy with other school stuff. IT WAS GREAT SEEING YOU ALL!!!! we should have more of this kind of hang outs, of course it would not be easy but hey! no harm trying right? :)

then LAST NIGHT, my mom and i went to watch AVENUE Q musical!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG OMG OMG OMG... IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!! SUPER FUNNY.... A MUST MUST MUST SEE!!

and now tonight, i had a buffet dinner at ikol or lkoi japanese restaurant at some hotel at havelock road. it was super good! for about $33 dollars, we had hell lot of super good jap food! cause it was their restaurant's anniversary in which you have to book 4months in advance to get seats. thats how awesome it is though the place is pretty small.

ALL IN ALL... i had an awesome week though i was pretty stressed out. the night time activities just made me relaxed. and i wanna thank all the people who were with me. you guys ROCK!

sometimes when i feel like i'm all alone and no one gets me, well i still dont really think anyone gets in personally but then all you darling friends help bring my spirit back up with your smiles and cheerfulness.. it really makes me feel a whole lot better :)

Mass dance practice!

2008-10-28T22:54:00.010+08:00

hey peeps...

been so busy busy busy.. really havent had the time to blog at all...

at least i've been feeling better than before so thats a plus.

today we just had our so called trial run for the mass dance video.. it really brought back memories from red camp 4 when we were the students attending the camp for a whole new experience and BOY... was it FUN! haha... its because of red camp 4 that i got to meet awesome people like jon chia, conrad, yong kun, leon, gab, thong, nick & brandon. MISS u all!

When fun people come out to play!! this is what happens.. NONSENSE AND LOTS AND LOTS OF LAUGHING.... thanks guys for relaxing me abit from my stressed out week. :)

2008-10-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

lets see... its like about 5 times in a row!!!INCLUDING TODAY... i'm sorry people but i'm F***ing FREAKED OUT!!! i cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

its not getting any better...what to do? :)

2008-10-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

i'm really really really scared of you already! i know i should go confront you like what my friends tell me to do and even though whenever i see you, i get so freaked out and angry, i'm really afraid to go confront you cause its not nice. so please....

2008-10-21T00:40:00.006+08:00

HEY PEOPLE, JUST LETTIN YOU KNOW... YOU CAN TAG AND LINK TO OTHER BLOGS FROM MINE JUST BY CLICKING ON THE 4 PICTURE BOXES ABOVE. :) THANKS. I had so much fun with the skit people tonight... i really hope it comes out awesome cause it feels really great!! :) you people are just wonderful!

ON a different note, i don't really know why i havent been in the best moods lately.. maybe because i have a lot going through my head constantly and these things are just bringing down my mood... during the YLA camp, i had fun but then besides 'fun', the rest of my emotions were kinda screwed up.. even now and i just can't seem to sort it out...oh well, that aside... today i felt my day was going great at first when class started and all but when it got to lunch time, i was in a bad mood thanks so someone!!! shan knows what i mean... thanks for being there for me girl. this someone cant get the hint... during the poly experience, when ushering the kids into the CC, i met you for the first time and i mean just be friendly so we talked but you've gone too far with whatever you're thinking.. i'm really trying to be nice here and let you know that i kinda wanna be alone. i mean we can talk and all but.... seriously... you've been scaring me time and time again ever since poly experience ended. whenever i happen to pass by each other, which seems to happen quite abit though our blocks are really pretty far and today was really not a good day. this has got to stop!! i really don't wanna be rude or anything so please... back off please.. i'm really really scared.. you have no clue!!
its getting harder and harder to hold them... i guess i'm started to drain myself... i remember reading my friend's blog and it said that he should learn to take his own advice and i think i should do the same but i guess its easier to advice others than to actually use that advice for ourselves. even though i wanna take my own advice, its kinda hard cause i know myself best and its just really complicated, though i know its not a good excuse but its just really hard to explain it. and then another 'you' has been in my life for so long so why do you drive me crazy??!!

its just all going downhill at this point

2008-10-20T14:27:00.002+08:00

OMG......................... I HEARD THE FUNNIEST THING TODAY!!!! though it might not be that funny to you readers but then you have to really be here to feel the totally impact of the joke! gosh.... my dear friend victor too junye!!!! this was how it went.. we are now having MIEC lecture and talking about apple baked ham...

so shan and i were saying how we love apple baked ham and this happened:

yve: " eh vic, you like apple baked ham?"
vic:" NO............................................................................. I DON'T LIKE FRUITS!"
YVE AND SHAN GOES:.............................."HAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...................."SUPER MAD LAUGHING!
and then..
vic:"..........................okay, i just got what you said"

it was super funny!!!..... he really woke us up! THANKS VIC :)

2008-10-19T23:16:00.005+08:00

as i said ...here are some pictures from YLA4! its not much at all as i'm waitin for xiang wei's pictures. didn't have time to take much.

I LOVE SPARTANS!!!I'LL MISS YOU GUYS!

the second night of YLA!

2008-10-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

the WONDERFUL holloween DINNER BASH a.k.a " Night of the living DEAD!" was great. i mean we did the deco SUPER NICELY!! I LOVED THE DECO! WELL DONE DECO TEAM and all those others who helped out. really really appreciate it! oh and the corp comm people as well... thanks so so much!and thanks to everyone who helped to clean the exam hall after we were done with the dinner. all those helpful peeps! lots of love :)

so today was all about deco and TRIBE PHOTOs!!! and practicing of CHEERS! and EATING! hahaa...so run here... run there... but of course with the awesome people around me, i had fun!! we laughed quite alot and just did stupid things! WELL DONE JASON AND FAITH for a great job at emc-ing. i'm glad we got to work together and get to know each other.. i gained alot from this experience being in the deco comm....

ok...kinda tired..let me change that... i'm extremely tired but i wanted to blog first. just to say abit. hopefully i can get photos from xiang wei.. i'll post a few of my mine too but not just yet! kinda lazy hahah... :)

sometimes life has its ups and downs and we all feel troubled about it. but then we have to look at the bright side of it all and just try to cheer up and be grateful for all the wonderful people around us who love us so much :)

Tired

2008-10-18T02:45:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day of YLA4 camp and boy am i tired haha....yesterday while i was packing for the camp, i changed bags 3 times until i left some items at home due to the changing of stupid bags. anyway, had my first lesson of cats and i mean it was pretty lame but at the same time quite interesting. and after cats, i rushed down to LT26 to meet shanya and pick our S&W class. yay we both got into hip hop together with joshua haha..cant wait for it to start. love dance. after that, rushed to get my things and then head off for YLA4! hahaha..what a day.. had so much to carry but yet i forgot some stuff. forgetful me :) go here and go there... deco here and deco there hahaa.. fun fun fun... but tiring thats all. all in all. i still had fun somehow haha.. its the people that i hang with, not so much what i'm doing. :) so thanks guys for letting me enjoy.

hope tomorrow goes well :) haha..shhhh...... not allowed to tell until the second day of camp is over. now, its work time... submissions of tutorials are near.. busy busy busy :)

Please dont leave!!

2008-10-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry i havent always been there for you. i'm sorry that we drifted... i'm sorry sorry sorry... please please forgive me!! :( please always stay strong... please please please dont give up! you have to fight!PLEASE....

i wont give up faith... love you!!! we all do! so... please.... just keep trying!!... don't leave...whatever it is, don't leave! please.... you were my first friend back then when we started those classes.. you always stuck by me.. and i'll never forget any of those wonderful memories.. so please!!

SL CAMP!

2008-10-10T21:56:00.007+08:00

hey hey hey....

so time really flies doesn't it?! the SL camp just ended yesterday and it was a great experience. i got to know many different people and i had fun with but of course my dear shanya! hahaa... the memories this camp has given me will always be with me. i'm glad i got to know some people even better than before and made me change my impression of them into an even better one :) though the camp was short, i enjoyed myself... so i just wanna thank all the people who made this camp possible and i wanna thank the SPARTANS!! hahaa.. you guys are awesome!!! hahaha

2008-10-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

SOOOO... Formula 1 is finally OVER! hahaha... and to think its Singapore's first time, i would say its a pretty good job though of course there were a few bad points about it but then again, who doesnt make mistake right? :)

I was really very lucky to have been able to go for the first 2 days, and i just want to THANK my cousins for the wonderful chance. if it wasnt for them, i wouldnt have been able to go at all. the first day was interesting as my cousins and i walked around almost the whole track to find the BEST spots to watch the race. we reached there about 3plus in the afternoon and we kept walking until about 10plus at night hahaa.. what a long day but it was totally worth it. and honestly, i've never really been interested in F1 before like NEVER! hahaha... but this really changed my views quite abit. i know some people think its pretty stupid to watch cars go round and round and round all day long and like sounds are so loud that they can burst your ear drums but then if you think about it, arent all sports about the same in that sense? i mean whenever you watch a sport, arent what they do about the same throughout the whole game? examples are like tennis or basketball or soccer...etc. its the same thing back and forth, back and forth but its because of your own interest in the sport that gives you the extra excitement so i guess when it comes to F1, each to its own :)

well, on the second day which is the qualifying rounds, My couins and i were lucky enough to be able to go into the sky suites!!!hahaha it was totally awesome. the free food...free drinks... great view...air conditioning....etc.. it was really nice!! THANK you all for the great experience :)

on a different note, i just cant stand that you dont see it! its not what friends are for... call whenever you want company.. call whenever you need a favour but other than that, you cant be bothered?? i mean, yes all friends do that but they also are there for one another, its not like how OUR friendship works.. if you dont need a favour, we never ever talk because you cant.. and i know your reasons though its not REALLY your fault BUT STILL!! and when she's not there, you come and find me? i'm not a sub...and i feel like you're just using me.. i'm not angry or anything but just saying you know....you're a great friend to me so... ya.i'll always help you whenever you need me but dont just be my friend for favours ok? :)

I'm sure you guys know whose car this is right??hahaha its Lewis Hamilton!

I love this car hahaha especially the colour :)

our very own singapore car haha...

This is upstairs in the sky suite :) NICE!

My dear Ferrari... i think if i'm not wrong.. the person in that one is Massa or maybe Kimi... hahaha poor guys :) nevermind..cheer up guys :)

I would have more pictures in the suite as soon as my cousin sends them to me :) for now.. CIAO HAHAHA....

2008-10-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

ok so now its pictures!! yay!!! hahaha.... sorry for the late delivery hahaha.. but here are some pictures from perth :)

I actually have more pictures so for those who knows me on facebook, feel free to go check it out and if you want, leave a comment :)

2008-09-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

its been 2 days since i've been back and i also got back my results on the day i was leaving perth and i mean i did OKAY... but i wish i'd put in more effort. but no worries, i'm gonna buck up for next sem.and when vic and i came back and were in the airport, we felt so happy to be back, everyone always has that feeling when they feel like they're home.

yesterday, i got back at about 4am and i stayed up until about 6.3am and then i went back to sleep. the whole day i kept going back to sleep. i just felt soooo tired from doing NOTHING !!haha... but i am really glad to be home.

today, shan came over so that we could do the self-selecting of timetable thing together. we got into the same class hopefully with our other classmates from last sem into tb 27 :)
and we played PS3 and it was pretty fun. shan really had fun playing time crisis 4 hahaha.. and when we played some racing game, she was so funny!!! the way she drives is CRAZY!!hahaha... after this, i'll be going for dinner with my mom to eat what i've been craving for which is HOKKIEN MEE!!!!!gosh...hahaha...i miss good chinese food!!

even though i'm glad to be back home, i do miss the TAN family already. when i stayed at their place, it didn't feel uncomfortable at all!! i felt totally at home as if i had a place in perth. they were super nice and totally helpful and so fun to be around. i am really envious of their family actually. the closeness that i wish my family had. they tell their mom everything as if there were talking to their best friend and like she always hears them out. she barely shouts or scolds them. she is like awesome. when you're with her, you feel total respect for her yet you feel as if she's a great friend in which you can just say anything to, NO secrets... the TANs were always full of joy, laughter, sad times, angry times....you can all it all and yet, they are still SOOOO VERY CLOSE. its AMAZING!!!! i really enjoyed my time with them and i wouldnt regret it ever. and i had a fun experience being a canteen lady at pam's school(corpus cristi college) as well. hahaha vic and i baked muffins and we sold food and drinks and we did whatever a canteen lady was suppose to do. we wore aprons as well. it was such an experience and it was fun too. the ladies there was all super nice and it was great talking to them and getting to know them. oh and one thing i love about the suburbs is the scenery.... love it love it love it!! though it honestly is TOOO quiet for my liking but still... :)\

i really had a blast and i just want to thank vic for coming along with me on this adventure. also wanna thank aunty pat,pam,paulina and andrew(esp for his room) haha... PAMELA TAN, i'm glad that you were super happy that we were there. hahaha... thank you for spending time with us even though you had school and assignment and all that. it was great that we got to meet your friends and we can be safe to say that you're in good hands :) i wish you guys could come back sooner but then oh well...

anyway, i posted pictures in facebook already.. :) i will be posting some here soon

love you pammy!

2008-09-11T13:59:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey..

still in perth right now in pam's house...
been having such a great time here with pam and her family and vicky too!!! :) its been a great holiday and i will be back only on tuesday early morning. pam brought us around for the past few days like to her school and we met her friends. we went to shopping centres.. fremantle, habour town...etc

its been pretty interesting down here but then of course i do miss my beloved friends back in singapore.. hahaha...i mean i enjoy it here but its not the same you know?

anyway i'll blog more soon if i can. take care people ...you know who you are... god bless.

LOVE YOU GUYS! CIAO :) :)

2008-08-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

Okay!!haha... i shall be random here. just feel like bloggin for some reason.

Lets see....

I should be in the holiday spirit right about now since well, it IS my holiday now but then, i feel like its very different? maybe because i'm so use to the whole everyone is on holiday together thing in secondary school, you know.. like the whole nov and dec holidays were everyone's schedule is about the same and everyone can hang together. but then , cause of the different schools and such, its kinda hard for that now. so hopefully, even though we're new to thing system, our friendships that we've had over the years will remain strong regardless or whatever.

Honestly, i'm not sure what exactly am i bloggin about but then i just feel like typing stuff out.
Its like talking out loud without having the need to actually say it. I think i've talked about my past before and stuff but i seriously miss my past. Though i fought constantly with my sister and got beaten by her alot and cried alot. but i mean it made me stronger. And before all the fighting, we actually got along pretty well, and i kinda miss those times when we were kids. all those family trips with my cousins and relatives, all those stupid games we played and all the havoc we caused but it was all in the name of fun. i miss family outings where we all actually got along. no arguements, no fighting, no conflicts, just enjoying the company of one another and having a blast!! its like as we grew older, our family moved further, or maybe just us and our parents.

the feeling of hating them yet you love them so much sucks. Every day someone has to argue with someone. everytime, there's always a misunderstood which no one wants to resolve. i mean in a sense we resolve it in forgiveness and just forget the matter but then by doing so, the matter never really gets resolved cause it keeps repeating and repeating and repeating.

I'm always told that your family is the one who understands you the best, who will never judge you, who knows you the best, who you can tell anything to. and YES, i believed that when i was a little girl. but lately, its not that easy to believe in that anymore. i have tried... but its like our tolerence for one another is going thin. i mean its not like we want that to happen, but it just keeps going on and on and on again. no one understands anyone anymore. LOVE is suppose to be something that brings a family together, but sometimes LOVE is the only thing holding them together. okay, maybe i don't make that much sense. i dont' know.... i'm just typing as i go along. i do love my family, and i appreciate everything they do for me even though i don;t express my appreciation though i MAY seem to dislike them ALOT but then its just external irritations like in all families. not too sure what i'm getting at...

this was SOOOO..not the topis i wanted to type about but it just popped in my head.

2008-08-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

OMG YAY!! last paper is OVER!!! ahahaa....

Really can't believe that time passes by so fast, i mean like 1st semester is over just like that and it feels like i just started. I'm sure alot of you feel it too. like time is just passing way too fast.

So what can i do now? hmmm maybe go work? though i don't know where to start looking haha.. or like what i want to do. I'm seriously gonna miss my class TB32 next sem if we're all not in the same class which of course is highly unlikely for all of us to be in the same class. But i guess we can still stay in touch but its not the same, you know.

When i first got into business studies, i always thought, " ok i got to work my butt of cause everyone in my class would be hardcore study people and competing hard against one another and i won't be able to become good friends with alot of them" but then my class totally proved my thoughts wrong. they are such a fun loving group of people. we are pretty united and i love them alot! haha... All the stupid moments, unglam photo taking sessions, crazy outings hahaa..i'm so gonna miss it all.

SO its now the holidays for me... i mean its awesome and all but then like i don't have the mood for anything much you know? its like i feel so half-hearted about everything. Not too sure why also. its not that i got any issues or i don't think i have any issues but just you like not in the mood. it feels so different from last year when i finished "Os" the thrill in that. hahaha totally not happening this time.

ok, i know this post is like retarded. i'll post again soon.

This is for Matt!haha(goodluck!!!)

2008-08-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

the craziest thing that i've done for love is ...well... waking up at 4am in the morning just to reach my boy's house and accompanying him until about 7am before he goes for his first day of BMT which resulted in me almost being late for school.

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28th August 2008

Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

2008-07-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

I honestly don't know whats going on with me. it all started last week and i dont even know whats happening. My emotions are going haywire and as each event happens, it sometimes becomes worse.

i'm starting to be quite negative and i'm honestly very sorry to who ever i may have offended. i really don't mean to. i'm sure i'll be back to the normal me soon.

You know, lately, whats going through my mind is all the "IFS" like what if... if only....but if...etc. i keep wanting things to be different but of course i know it can't. And lately, the stuff i hear just makes me feel more horrible.

Ok, i duno what i'm trying to say in this post, its all over the place but i'm just you know letting it out.

it feels like its all gone, everything we've worked for, everything we're gone through...its as if, just what you say can just destroy it all. Our memories, our hardships, our time spent, our efforts...just vanishing... You all just do what you guys want and not care about how the rest of us feel,how heartless can you get?? i may seem abit drama about it, but people who don't understand, please dont judge...

There's this box...it can store so many things inside it, but yet its always empty. No one wants to put anything inside of the box as its left in the open and its made of wood. they dont want their things to get wet and dirty when the wood gets wet.So the box remained empty throughout the years and even though it rained alot, the box never broke or anything due to the rain, neither did the box rot. Yet no one wanted the box, until one day, the Box finally broke into many pieces in a storm and after that day, people wondered where the box went ....etc the story goes on... its quite long but ok...ya.....

everything i said here, is damn random but oh well..........

Time & Friends

2008-07-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

This entry wont be too long...not alot of pictures and like not much really happening..

Anyway, today had family dinner with all the relatives comin over to our place for a farewell as yvette is leaving for perth next week... and also to celebrate bailyn and my mom's birthday.

Everyone keeps asking me if i'll miss my sister....well, i honestly can't really answer them. i mean yvette and i have never really been close as sisters even when we were young.. it has gotten better, i also agree but then again, its not THAT close and like cause of poly and other activities, i'm usually not at home that much so i don't see her all the time. So i guess, i'm kinda use to the fact of not seeing her??But i mean i will of course miss her abit due to her arguements with my mom and all the nonsense she does but other than that, i guess i'll get use to it. I can't say much for now as she hasnt left yet but hopefully, i wont miss her la....hahah it'll be weird...some of u might know what i mean but that.

I just wanna say i'm sorry for not being there for you when u needed a friend... i really don't mean to...I hope u'll forgive me. i don't want u to suffer by urself...you're my friend...i don't want that to happen to u...even though sometimes everyone goes through it but u must never give up..everything happens for a reason...use the negativity you have and change it into something positive that will help yourself and maybe others in future who may go through it as well. Whatever it is, never give up on hope or happiness. Don't turn towards darkness... you will always have people who wanna help you and be there for you.. like shan and i. so i just wanna say i'm sorry again... and that you know i'm here for u, my friend :)

2008-06-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

PICTURE TIME YET AGAIN!!! :) :)

hey u'all..i know yet again, i havent been posting..i guess i've just been lazy and no mood la!!haha...anyway, lets see...the holidays just ended last week and during the holidays,some fun stuff happened. i had a TnB camp in school which was pretty fun cause i made new friends, i danced like an idiot, took stupid pictures, played games into the early morning with my friends...and i also had an outing with them the week after to bowl and caught a movie...Matthew totally owned us that day and to think it was all of us against him!hahaha...REMATCH PLEASE!! I also hung out with my awesome classmates but of course on somedays were to do projects but then we also had fun as we did work so i mean..comeon..thats great as well...i had trainings and went for a bbq to celebrate melvin's birthday at phyllicia's condo. i Hung out with my 2 darling besties...my sec sch class had a gathering at hog's breath at chjmes....busy time for me man..PLUS the assignments that we had to hand in during those weeks...like wow right...haha..

Now that school has just began yet again, it totally sucks..like no mood for it! and so many projects and presentations...stress man!!! but we need to take everything one step at a time or else! right??... Yesterday had training at SP and wow, SP is damn far but so is NP but still...going home after training was not fun and i kinda felt like i wasted some time there as training wasnt very productive. so i hope from now on, trainings will have better attendance and more productive cos i really want this team to be great :)

I really feel like i cant hold it anymore...i've really been endure all this time.i duno how much more i can take. you never understand, u never listen...u always think u listen but u dun, u always shut me up before i can go on. when will u ever get it??do u know how much u and them have affected me and made me feel so horrible??do u know how much i try but i'm not her!!who do u think i am??and u always ask me to appreciate u...and i do..but u always say i dont...i dun need u to do the same for me but dun put words in my mouth please....Everyday!!!do u know that u affect me so much!!!!do u know how much i hate it!!!everyone thinks u're damn nice,damn cool, and whatever...please stop acting...i'm going out of my mind already!!

2008-06-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

YES!!!CTs are OVER!!!last paper was on last thursday and then at night i went out with my awesome frens to hang out!!!!hahaha the misfits night out!yay...EVEN though i left early, i still had a good time while it lasted...i'll post the pictures at the end no worries lol...then on friday had an outing with sel,phyllicia and then we met claud....MY DARLINGS!!!hahaha.... miss them alot man! then at 7pm we went for training at SMU with wonderful smu-ers..and i stayed with my cousins at Swiss hotel at raffles city for 2 night cos my aunt got free night stays so just made use of it ....last night,sam, bay and i went to clarke quay to walk and chit chat and laugh and cam-whore haha...super funny!i really had a great time catching up with everyone after the CTs!! hopefully, i can enjoy more of my break than doing projects!hahaha....* keeping my fingers crossed * :)

HAHA...as ALWAYS!!!THEM AND THEIR HAIR!!hahaha....and these are my darlings!

the last photo was in the hotel room..haha...from the balcony on the 39th floor yup.

2008-06-03T22:59:00.001+08:00

2 DOWN! 1 MORE TO GO! and the worse part of it is...that the last paper is the one i dont wanna do the most!ahahaa... and its......BLAW!!HAHAHa...alot of memory work!

Anyway, watched narnia already with vic,shan and con...it was pretty nice and quite touching too but i thought the ending could have been alot better.yup.sadly on that day, shan lost her wallet...seriously people...cant u be honest and just return other people's things or at least bring it to the information counter...dont u guys have a heart??i mean, u wouldnt want the same thing to happen to you right!

so ok life hasnt been that exciting or anything,i mean i do have fun with my friends and all but like u know...nothing that WOW has happened so nothing much to tell. but i can say that i'm so glad that i have many awesome friends who i know really cares about me and not just act nice in my face...esp my 2 best friends claud and phyllicia...we've like been through so much in secondary school together and until now, we're still quite tight and i really hope it stays this way forever...i dun wanna jinx anything but ya!i love them so much...we're always full of nonsense, i'm sure the people who know us can understand what i mean. i wanna thank coach for formin the outside team so that we can keep fit and also like meet up often.

these are the friends i really hope to have forever with me...my 2 darlings and well...extra amston haha..

but of course there are alot more people whom i've gotten to know and are real awesome and i'm so glad to have met them and become real close friends with them... :)

MY cousins are also AWESOME PEOPLE AND SUPER DUPER funny!!!hahaha

they can really make my day as well with all the nonsense they come up with.

In the kids picture, i'm sure u guys know which one is me right?????hahaha...and the other picture is like some of my cousins...not all of them yet!HAHAHA...and this is just my mom's family side!HAHA and these are people whom i used to know at work (singapore inline)but most of them like left that place already due to different reasons...

and these are the people i miss doing cheer with!!my juniors and the smu people!

ok...i duno what else to blog about for now.i'm sorry i havent been bloggin, jus been lazy haha...peace out for now k :) ciao

2008-05-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

sorry people for not bloggin though i don't think alot of people read my blog so doesn't really matter haha...today is the 25th of may 2008!the last day of this week...YES!!hahaa..this week has been a totally horror with all the tests and presentation and role play...etc..omg, i felt so stressed out and tired of it all..i'm sure my fellow classmates feel the same.don't believe??go to my friend, victor's blog and go see for yourself!!

anyway, today i had fun at night even though i wore a DRESS! haha..my cousins and i went crazy and had so much fun at my aunt's 60th birthday dinner..it was pretty grand like a chinese wedding dinner!haha...the food was good...very tasty so good choice aunty esther...then we had like chocolates...a live band, my aunt sang...they played BINGO!haha...it was pretty fun all in all..we had alot of fun with the props!...PICTURE TIME!!HAHAHA..

2008-05-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

i feel so bad...I'm nicely doing this bog post during bl aw lecture ...hahaha

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MOTHERS OUT THERE!!and Conrad, this doesn't include me!!!

Anyway,the day before mother's day, i was stressing quite abit!I had cheer training at amk until about 4pm and was aching all over because i was so not use to tough cheer trg all over again.its been like what!4mths or so from when i last trained?? i went to the airport to study with shan and vic after that. we tried to study our business law as we had a quiz on monday.yup!

at about 9pm, we ate and i tot of rushin home so that i can say bye to my dad cos he was leavin for London to do work and meet us with my sis and mom. i know i know, why am i so stupid and not stay at the airport and wait right?haha i duno, i just didn't feel like it. so i actually rushed off and took a cab home which!!!!cost me $17.50!!!!!!that's damn ex please cos of the extra $5 charge from the airport!!stupid me!oh well..the house is totally mine!!!hahaha...yay!!

on mother's day, i woke up late but luckily in time for lunch at the club with my step-sis and relatives . after eating, i went home to drop some stuff off and then OFF we went, both yvonne and i to go pick her fren up and we went to amk hub to watch what happens in vegas!...it was good!!! haha..it was pretty funny...the whole cinema was in laughter most of the time...i would say that it was worth watching but i didn't pay of course.my lovely sister did...thks jie!!!

the day didn't end there, we went to the seletar camp,inside...to drink abit at this place(not sure of the name) ya...i drank something called SOL.yup..some type of beer...

only after this i went back home to.............guess guess!!!!STUDY!!!!!...like OMG RIGHT?hahaha...

i stayed up until about 2am just to make sure i finish my poa hw and my business law studying...was super tired..

On Monday.....dooms day!!HAHA...business law quiz went alright... and then we had poa lecture and poa tutorial...during tutorial,near the end..i went abit nuts!!ahaha..i guess i became hyper cos i was so tired and hoped that time would pass faster.

when sch ended, i went to meet jon and we went one whole round jus to go to kallang netball centre to watch michelle teo play netball in the JC competition. yup...raffles won hwa chong and acjc won sajc. yup...then mich's dad sent me home..

Today is DSS...it was quite fun as we were doin our PowerPoint slide which was quite funny!!then now is......BLAW LECTURE!YAY!haha..BORING!!!!!but what to do....

after this i have trg at smu....hopefully,it will not be a waste of time...i really wan our outside team to succeed!!!!so girls....please help do Ur part!!!please....

I'm quite surprised that u still don't get it..ahahaha.. i guess thats good..

it matters because well......i guess its something different and for once, i feel like i can totally be myself...i guess i jus enjoy it but then u know all ur other issues and all...what can i say...i dun wanna spoil our friendship but yet i feel i need to say something...oh well...lets see how it goes k :):)

2008-05-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

Time seriously passes pretty fast...i mean like its already the 4th week of school!!and then common tests are coming up already!like wow!haha.....can u believe it???

On monday, i was suppose to have netball but then my mom wanted me to rest my ankle cause i sprained it last week.so in the end, i went to eat PRATA with shan,victor and conrad..then we headed to macs and slack awhile before we left...and the funny thing is that 2 of us got stomach problem after that haha...

so today,school was kinda slack..we finished our DSS PROJECT!!!YAY!!BUT BUT BUT BUT.... we still got to present it!damn right...lol...after blaw lecture, i had my np ambassadors' interview...i kinda blanked when they asked me to stand and sing so i kinda took a LONG time..then i ended up singing holy holy holy HAHAHA...and i think i kinda sang it wrongly abit here and there...haha..WAD DO U EXPECT?I WAS NERVOUS!!

i REALLY hope i can get in..and i hope that my dear friends can get in as well cause it would really be awesome if we all got in together :)

and i think for like the duno how many times, i'm in the library yet again..haha and to think in secondary school,i hated going to the sch library cause well, i'm not good with being quiet!haha..people who know me would get it!but luckily, in np library, no need to be so quiet..there are like FIVE LEVELS!haha...so after my interview,shan and i decided to stay on in the library to accompany vic until he has to leave.yup!aren't we super nice people?? :) :) ..this is called cam-whoring in the library!haha...

My dear friend,i really hope u're ok!i was really worried for u that day..i'm sorry i couldnt come out to be there with u...i hope u'll feel better each day!and remember wad i said ok?think about it!dun let ur feelings overcloud ur judgement.really hope to see u soon ya?all the best in school...LOVE U!

I feel that some people are quite superficial...i mean, i think its not nice to go and tell people that u like someone even though i dun really know them but cause they are good-looking, so u jus say u like tt person...i'm not a big fan of these kind of people cause i strongly believe that u can oly truly like someone only after u've really gotten to know them.yup..jus a penny for my thoughts haha...

2008-05-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

School work keeps piling up and up and up...really hope that i wont be TOO stressed because of all this.yesterday after school,shan,Vic and i went to SIM with grace as well to have lunch. Conrad also came and joined up. then we headed to the library to do our presentation....in between, our mood changed and we just became abit lazy,but of course someone was still quite enthu about it so he did abit. then we kinda go hungry/thirsty so vic and i went downstairs to buy bubble tea and a hot dog..OMG,IT WAS SUPER FUNNY that we couldn't even go up the stairs properly, we kept laughing and laughing all the way up...its not funny if i just tell it like that,u have to be there to see it then it would be damn funny. anyway, we went back to the room and continued our stuff. oh but before that, Conrad left early cos he had some stuff to do so it was just 3 of us left....

i really enjoyed myself here and there...and shan is so cute...cos the rooms were all glass and everyone could see us in and out, so shan wrote "stare what stare" or something along those lines...and some guy walked pass and looked and read it and immediately looked away ha ha..the way he did it was hilarious!!! Before we left, we took some photos..yup.

oh and today, i went for mass in the morning OH AND HAPPY LABOUR DAY!haha...then in the afternoon, i went to novena sq to study with phyllicia, jo and amston at MOS, hahaha it wasnt THAT successful but i did do some work so it was alright...we laughed quite abit as well.. but all in all, it was a good day though had some arguments with my mom this morning but its ALL good!HAHA...

2008-04-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

so its been like about 2 and a half weeks since i started school in ngee ann, and i guess its going well jus that my attitude is going down,i hope that i can bring myself back up again and not become too lazy.i guess its jus very different from secondary school where everything is told to u,everything is given,there are so many rules about this and that.then when u come to poly,it all changes...u have to find everything out for yourself,u have to do things yourself,the rules are well,there's barely any rules and then when i think of friends...i jus miss my sec sch friends ALOT!...i mean the people i hang out with now are Awesome and its real fun and i'm so glad i got to meet and know them but its just that,i guess i'm not that use to changes.i cant accept big changes in my life so quick,i would need alot of time.

WELL,so i had my first netball training and it was tough..didnt expect it to be so intense on the 1st training but then,its good to train our body so ya..but i jus hope my ankle will not affect me again.oh..and before netball,i had some games day thing for ambassadors...hahaha next week, got an interview..hopefully i will do well in it...

sorry my post is quite short,not really in the mood haha...yup ciao!

Both of u will always be my bestest friends forever and i love u both LOTS AND LOTS!!!

2008-04-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

I havent been bloggin...oops,been kinda lazy man hahaha....so POLY has already BEGAN..haha..its already been 1 week and 2 days...and i'm glad conrad is in my class and i got to know more people in my class like shan and victor...ahahaha ..they are awesome people...yowie is in my lectures as well..how fun is that right?but of course,i'm still not use to the whole guys and girls in the same sch thing cos as u know,i'm from an all girls school,so the atmostphere is quite different.haha...i shall jus post some pictures to show u what i mean haha...
and also cos we were kinda bored during blaw lecture haha..ooops...shan started drawin all of us which was damn nonsense hahaha....i shall show u.

hahaa...this is how we ended our day in school.then after school,i went to novena to meet WHINEY and ALY!!hahaha..it was a damn last min thing la..i jus boarded the bus when aly msged me.lol....anyways,we ate at fish & co. AND we camwhored ALOT!!!HAHA...but i wont show much...lol...WAY too many pictures.

2008-04-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

Its been quite awhile since i last blogged hahaa...and guess wad!!!today is MY BIRTHDAY!!3RD APRIL!!hahaha...FINALLY i'm 18 and even though that might seem abit OLD.i DONT CARE!hahaha....yay!!!happy birthday to me!

i'd like to say a BIG THANK YOU to EVERYONE who wished me for my birthday and really happy that they remembered :)

Yesterday,i went to wild wild wet with jo reberts,amston and phyllicia aahhaha and THANK U GUYS SO MUCH FOR UR PRESENT TO ME..I LOVE THE PHOTOS AND EVERYTHIGN ABOUT IT AND THE NOTES AS WELL :) REALLY TOUCHED!!!

Today,i met jo pay in the morning at the bus stop outside our houses to head back to secondary school.then surprising,mary came out of her house and wished me happy birthday and they got me a a small cake and a little pouch wallet thing...hahaha thks jo and mary...then went back to sec sch and met up with some teachers and my juniors who so nicely wished me happy birthday as well...LOVE U JUNIORS!!!then jo and i left sch and went to town and met up with bryant!!hahaha...we had so much fun camwhoring at the 5th level of taka...ahaha...thks guys for the camwhoring session,i really enjoyed myself and it was really fun talkin to u bryant hahaah!!!!then phyllicia met us at taka around 4ish and we jus slacked...met up with claud abit later at tangs and then we headed to wheelock to eat sushi!!!hahaha...

At 7pm we had meeting at braddell heights cc so phyllicia and i had to rush off,but before that we met rachael for awhile and then left...Met coach,terie,wei ting,eunice and cynthia there for the meeting and then we went to upp serangoon road to a place called O bar & resturant to have finger food and some drinks....all in all...i had a good day thks to everyone!LOVE U ALL SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

Life has been normal i guess...tomorrow is posting at 8am!quite scary though i dun feel anything at the moment which is really weird because usually i'm super nervous like crazy ahaha...

So sad...i miss workin for muse inc. where i did work for shell/F1 roadshow and made new friends and had so much fun at times...esp in the airport because there werent alot of people most of the time...Pictures say a thousand word!

2008-02-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

wow...i seriously haven't been bloggin..but cause i'm jus quite lazy..oops haha...anyways...i'd like to wish a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALYSSA whose birthday is actually today and to THONG...HAPPY BIRTHDAY but i'll wish u again on the 7th of feb so dun worry haha..

These 2 idiots had they're birthday together on sunday at the bayshore and it was alright i guess...brandon koh is an asshole though cos he kept tryin to take the soccer ball away from us haha...thks for the invite guys...anyways...i'd like to show the photos to explain more...haha...startin with of course the birthday girl and boy!

and NOW,we include everyone else haha!

oh...and the yummy yummy cheesecake..

hahaa....now its ALY AND JO!

ME AND ALY!!

PHYLLICIA AND CLAUD

JEANETTE,MICHELLE,SHERMAINE,CHERSY + ALY!

5/1 2007 IJ!

This guy down here is called bryant,most of us got to know him on sunday itself and found out he is so light!!omg!!!hahaa....and lookin at aly's blog..omg bryant,ur heel stretch is damn nice...u're so flexible!UNFAIR!!

WELL,the pictures sums up roughly the party up till about 5 where i had to leave for my dad's side the family reunion yup...and today,i followed claud to go cut her hair after much thought!haha..so now,dear claud has short hair!!!hahaa and for once ,out of the times she cut short hair,she LIKES IT!hahaa..yay...its honestly nice so ya!haha....

2008-01-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

so on sunday.....

my cousin bailyn and i went to seletar country club to tan for abit...and then we went gymin...after which,we went into the sauta....was damn nice hahaa...then we showered and went back...bay headed to town to meet some frens whereas i went home to rest awhile then went for dinner with my family at paragon.

today...met up with lindsley and phyllicia cos they wanted to go cut hair so i decided to join them...we trimed our hair and fringe,nothing big..claud and selina had to work but selina met us at about 3ish and then we headed to swirl to go visit claud and eat some ICE CREAM!!hahaha...played taboo....it was pretty fun and super retarded...lindsley really can make u laugh....

this is a picture i took at the club when we were tannin...seems to heavenly haha....

2008-01-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

i know i'm super LAZY to blog hahaha!!!!oh well...

ON wednesday,it was Jo's birthday so we went to chomp chomp for dinner and sang a birthday song and cut cake!haha...HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!U'RE 18!!!!!

so phyllicia,amston and i have been to TP,SP &NYP open house and it is all ok ok la haha...we spent like less than an hour for all 3 polys...we jus wanted to know wad we need to know and leave haha...

then phyllicia and i have been job huntin as well...we've hunted for 2 days already...hope we get the calls...some have hope,some can forget it haha...but jus keepin our fingers crossed!!

i haven't exactly been doin alot...its like the holidays are stuck in me and i've become jus lazy haha..but of course when people ask me out,i'll move my ass out of my house!haha...

i miss my tripod!!!it seems to be leanin towards one side...i jus hope it doesn't fall on the ground..i really wan my tripod to stand..but well,its the holidays and everyone is busy with different things so..wad to do!

Don't know why but i'm startin to feel like i'm losin my sense of belongin to school,to church...well regardin church...i've really fallen!!!i've drifted so much from the people that me alot to me but they all got their own thing and well...i guess things change?or maybe i myself have changed..i really don't get it anymore..

oh today i watched AvP2...it was alright i guess..i'll give it a 2.5/5...

No matter how i look at it...i still miss u...its been so long yet...sigh....i even had a dream!how crazy am i!!and please...i dun move like immediately to another..i hope u dun think that way of me...i feel like i regret yet i feel like i did the right thing..i really wish even know u would tell me even abit of how u felt..i never really knew or maybe i did but sometimes,ur actions dun say alot and u urself dun say anything...how can i not be insecure?i really duno anymore...

2008-01-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

SO its like A WHOLE NEW YEAR 2008!!time really sure pass by fast...its like secondary school days are over..part of me is glad its finally over after 5 long years though it seems real short at the moment but then the other part of me misses secondary school so much..

Anyway, its been 7 days since the new year has started and i know i haven't been bloggin much though i dun think alot of people read mine so its all good..

Kinda lazy to talk whats been going on from the start of the new year so i'll jus start from yesterday.

Well...the whole day i didn't do much besides go to church in the mornin with my cousins.then the rest of the day was at home.About 4plus,my family and i headed to conrad hotel for my cousin,gerald's weddin dinner.wasn't really lookin forward to it cos i dislike dressin up,people who know me,u would should know haha...during the dinner,the younger cousins were seated with gerald's dad's side of the family...which would be my cousin,gerald's other cousins and of course, we all didn't know each other cos of the age gap between both groups making it weird but nothing much we could do so we jus stuck to it.Dinner was alright i guess...the usual chinese weddin dinners.Bailyn,stef,sam,bri,lian,yvette and i sat together and jus entertained ourselves..and know what,matthew kept comin to our area to play with us which was so fun cos he is SO CUTE!....the funny thing was when my cousin's best friend was makin a speech and everyone was super quiet,matthew started talkin super loudly for the fun of it and the more we wanted him to keep quiet,the louder he became hahaa...super funny....

hmmm...nothing much left for me to say.jus look at some pictures....

2007-12-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

i know i haven't been bloggin....i honestly have alot i wanna blog about but lately,i've haven't had the mood to blog at all...

so christmas has passed and a new year is about to begin...seems excitin yet sad as my years in secondary sch are finally over and now movin on to another stage of my life...even though i've been enjoyin myself with my frens..i can't help but be on a emotional low at times...duno wads wrong with me..and surprisingly,a fren's composed music can help quite abit to lift my spirit up...so i jus wanna say thks to u...

i have alot of pictures i wanna upload but i'll do it another time k...soon but not now...

tomorrow is already new year's eve...time really flys when u're not looking.then when i actually take time to stop and remember the past,it feels so great....the friends,the laughter,the fun....etc...

this year has taken a toll on alot of us and it all comes down to our results next year....scary!!hope we all do well...

2007-12-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

well...slept pretty late tis mornin like at 4am...and i was suppose to meet phyllicia for breakfast but i was TOO tired that i cancelled it..sorry dao..i'll make it up to u ok..so at about 3.15,i reached singapore inline which is at queen's rd and met deborah there for training..debs wanted to work and i need to recap on my coachin so mr law was there teachin us theory...he's so funny!but dun catch him when he's real angry,seriously not a pretty sight at all to see...after that,i came home and jus slack all the way to now...haha...wanted to go esplanade with jerome and zee to skate but then...i was alr on the bus back home when jerome invited me along so like forget it haha...too lazy to get off and change bus.

have u ever felt like when something or someone leaves u after being with u for quite sometime,its like something is missin?and sometimes when u feel that that something is missin,u wanna replace or return that thing back to where u're use to it being at?people sometimes say that wads then is then and wads now is now...and that when u're in the present,don't time so much about the painful past....all these kinds of quote or phrase are so easy to tell people but to actually do it or follow it takes super long and its real hard...i don't really know why i'm being so random but ya...
sometimes when people face problems or get into situations and they ignore as long as they can...usually wad people will tell them is that,the past will catch up with u or something like that...so don't avoid issues though it might be the easiest way out..yet again,easy to say,hard to do...honestly,i'm not too sure what my point of all tis is but its jus random thoughts thats all i guess...

u know wad makes me sad sometimes?is to think that even though i have frens that have known me for more than a yr and stuff and know me inside out,can jus judge me jus cause someone on the outside said something else about me and u believe them...don't u feel insulted?i mean...to have frens who jus push u away or dislike u jus cos someone from the outside who barely knows u comments badly about u and hear it and believe it though they know u so much better and knowin its not true yet still choose to believe...its jus hurtful i guess to be judged by people u love and care about...oh well..jus a thought hahaa...

Ever since i saw u that day...my mind has been buggin me...do u know how much u affect me?do u know how much i go through at night thinkin about it...so wad if new frens are made?do u think i'm loose or something and jus go here and there and be a slut or something...if u thought that,i'm so disappointed and offended cos that is totally not who i am and u know it...i feel like i regret what happened and at the same time,i don't...i'm so confused and it seems worse each night..i feel like i'm going insane..i feel like i'm jus plain crazy...and i really duno wad to do...i know i got to get myself together and move on cos tis is not like me at all...i'm suppose to be strong...can endure...but look at me...damn it!hate the feeling that all this has brought in me..jus because i see u ONCE after so long...i go haywire...f*** it!

2007-12-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

so met gab,tzelin this afternoon at macs waitin for claud then we would head to nick's hse but then he wasn't home yet so we went to island creamery to eat some yummy ice cream...after that...we cabbed down to nick's...thks tzelin for cab though gab so smart...never remind her to take her umbrella...so at nick's place we jus slack and listen to the guys play music and sing and stuff....leon,nick,tzelin,claud,gab,jerome and this other guy forgot his name were there....nick's sister is SOOO cute though his brother is SUPER shy...after that about 5ish...tzelin,gab,leon and i shared a cab...gab dropped off at holland village while the rest of us headed to town where we met conrad and their classmate at paragon..then leon,conrad and their classmate(forgot his name too...chinese names..always forget..duno why)went for dinner then tess came and then they both followed me to buy bread and then headed home and so did i...yup...now jus waitin for tzelin to send nick the photos so that he can send it to me!!!!yay!!hahahaha........

2007-12-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

i know i haven't been bloggin but i can't help it...been abit lazy and been havin quite afew activities going on.

so how about we start from...hmmm...wednesday night...claud accompanied me to go watch my choir perform at victoria concert hall...they are one of the best choirs in singapore and together they put up an amazin show worth the money...after which,when claud and i were walkin back to city hall mrt...we kept laughin and laughin as we talked about something we were to do the next day haha...

at about 12midnight or so...aly told me that she was comin to jalan kayu to eat prata and guan was gonna come too...haha so we were there at the prata shop until about 2ish...then i went back home and guess wad...gerard was at the prata shop too even before i was there but i didn't see him until he left at the same time as i did...its been like 3 mths since i've last saw him...

on thursday....i kinda overslept abit when i was suppose to meet claud at 8.30am at parkroyal hotel,i WOKE UP at 8.30 ahaha...so i rushed and all and guess wad???even though i was late....everyone else were late too as in the actors and actress....claud and i were part of some film thing to earn easy money or so we thought but its not as easy when u do it hahaha... so the moment i came home...i fell asleep...

on friday...met chersy,shermaine,michelle and jeannette at dhoby to go shop for workin skirts...couldn't find so we headed down to chinatown where we got our skirts then we had lunch and left..headed to bugis to find work shoes for shermaine and michelle...in the end,michelle jus bought one pair though she didn't like it and shermaine said she'll buy it another day.

so when that was done,we went to amk hub's ntuc extra to buy some drinks and food for the bbq at my house that night.met brandon,dawn and thong there too...then we headed back to my place to prepare the bbq pit,the food and the drinks and guess what the guys did......WATCH TV!!hahaa...USELESS PEOPLE!but jon was nice enough to help out....ok and thong helped out abit too though he was sick..leon wanted to help too at least he offered..the rest..forget it ahhaa....i jus wanna thank chersy,shermaine,michelle,jeannette and dawn for all their help when it came to bbq-in and all...it was really nice of them...

oh and guess wad happened during the bbq....after eatin and all...the guys played with EGGS!...it started when brandon threw it at claud and claud wanted revenge so we added beer to water and threw it on leon and brandon..from there..it all started and eggs were bein thrown all over the place....when we ran out of eggs...they went to buy plastic bags to fill with water and we ended up playin waterbombs..haha...and i ended up super wet and also runnin out of home clothes cos they are all wet from yesterday after lendin to yong kun,brandon,claud,aly and nick ahaha...but its ok..everyone ended up really wet and shermaine and chersy joined in too...it was really fun...at one point..it was abit weird cos something happened but then...it was ok in the end...jus wanna thank everyone for comin....the sexy thongs : thong,claud,aly,leon,nick,gab,jon,chersy,shermaine,jeannette,michelle,yong kun,dawn,brandon..and phyllicia though she couldn;t make it...i also wanna thank mary and jo for comin...now...PICTURE TIME!!hahahaa.....

THATS THE END HAHAHAH!!

2007-12-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

so last night i slept pretty late..therefore when i woke up for mass this mornin i wanted to jus NOT wake up...can't stand it haha...but of course i went in the end...was like fallin asleep the whole time during mass but wad can i do..i couldn't help it!haha...so came home and slacked..then at about 1 plus,phyllicia came over to hang around awhile...after which,we left and headed for town to meet everyone at 4pm at lido SUPPOSEDLY!haha then jon say go monstercue first...so FINE!we started walkin there..then claud called and say meet at lido ...SOOOO...we walked back to lido..cos we didn't know nick,gab,conrad and leon were there already..should have called them first...so we sat upstairs at the corner waitin for everyone to come...by they time we actually picked a movie and bought the tickets,it was almost 6pm?haha...idiots!haha..but AWESOME people haha..it was like an ACS(I) + IJTP outing includin jon haha...so we went for dinner at far east plaza and ya slacked again ...then headed back to lido to watch THE KINGDOM...it was super borin at the start but then it got interestin...the killin and all were so gruesome...but pretty amazin in a sense ahaha..

yup..after the movie,phyllicia and michelle left first,..the rest of us headed to newton circus to have supper...we talked about alot of nonsense..it was fun haha..then claud and gab left first...the rest of us left at about 11pm..yup...then now jus recapped about it all haha...wad a day wad a aday hahaha....

2007-11-29T17:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday was pretty fun....though my mornin started off pretty tired when i woke up at about 8plus then went to meet leon at serangoon mrt to go to jalan kayu to eat prata with jon and supposedly aly but she was tired and all so ya...she'd join us later.then we ate and stuff...oh and leon and i actually made a bet that if jon was late,i owed him 2 pratas but if jon was early,he owed me 2 pratas and of course i won!!hahaa...though jon and leon made a bet too that if jon was early,jon owed leon 1 prata so the real winner was actually LEON!!haha...then after that,jon had to go to YFC first to pass food to his instructors and stuff and he would meet us later at about 1.30pm..so i sat with leon at the prata shop and talked and talked and talked and talked for about an hr and a half or more i think jus waitin for ALYBELLY to come haha...

when she came,we went to my hse awhile to slack then soon after,leon had to leave so aly and i headed to seletar country club to bowl....mom gave us a lift and at the same time picked jon us and we went to bowl haha...our first game...ALY WAS TYCO!!!she played really well for a person who doesn't like the sport haha...then second game,aly stopped while jon and i continued to compete...he won the second round..and then i started to suck at bowlin..jon became a pro haha...stupid jon...NOOOB UR HEAD!haha...then third round,i LOST again!!haha...oh and at the same time,we ate fries,and stuff and drank ice cream floats..aly drank green tea of course..not surprisin right haha...yup then came back to my place after that and slacked again cos it was rainin quite abit ...ahaha then we started camwhorin alittle!haha....it was fun...

oh and stupid thing was aly and i wanted to go town so we took 86 with jon to YCK mrt then aly got tired so wad did i do??i took train with them to amk mrt and took BUS 86 BACK HOME!hahaa....fun right....

got real tired and fell asleep hopin to be more awake to wake the liverpool match..woke up at about 10plus and started awake until about 3ish and i couldn't take it anymore..really tried but haha...too bad which sucked...liverpool won 4-1...nicely!!!GO TORRES!!hahaha....

So NOT aly's jumpsuit!hahaha...its someone's pilot suit i think lol...

2007-11-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

ok..so i said i was going to plush to club right??well....that wish and excitement is totally gone..its gone down the wonderful drain....mom jus knows how to spoil all my nights...my days...my whenever...sigh.....tis is jus great....wanted to have one night of fun with everyone and wad happens?.....no comments anymore,....i went all the way to clarke quay jus to come all the way home again...

2007-11-27T12:47:00.000+08:00

so...now that the camp is over....hahaha things are kinda borin again...hahaa...well ok..not really..i mean we got to meet new people like the ACS(i) guys like nick,conrad,thong,brandon,gab,leon,yong kun...etc and our SLs like jon,keann,cheryl,ferry,marvin,matt,derek,....etc...it was really fun esp on the last day...

well...and now there is like quite abit going on...like the SLs are gonna plan stuff for us like post camp activities and other nonsense haha..and even we ourselves are plannin our own outings to keep in contact with everyone....so fun!

tonight we plannin to go clubbin at plush...haha..hope its gonna be fun fun fun...mary,na,dawn,claud,sel,aly all going too!yayness...lol....

2007-11-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

SO!....besides Os being over..i went for tis redcamp4 at ngee ann poly..it was so fun..ok the first day was pretty boring but then it started to get better...really have a fun time with my classmates who went and were in my group and i also got to know more people from subtribe 2 of APACHES!!YAY!!haha...oh and we won the cheering competition HANDS DOWN!but of course right..hahaha....anyways..we got to try things from all the different courses and learn more knowlegde about each course is taught and stuff...it was quite interestin...ok..not all courses were interestin..to me,mainly the school of business and the school of engineering were the best haha...overall,i jus had fun with everyone..the SLs were awesome too...they really know how to entertain and get things going....really had a blast..but sadly,it has come to an end though the battle has jus begun...really hope i can get into ngee ann poly...anyways...too lazy to blog much for now so how abt lettin the pictures tell abit of the story...
this is our apaches sub-tribe 2......had alot of fun together...

IJTP rocks....go 5/1 2007 of sub-tribe 2!!yay!!

this is wad u do when the music at a club is not nice and u're bored hahaa....

haha.....at the end of the day...jus make friends and say "peace!!!" lol

2007-11-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

so the sayin goes "life goes on" or like "keep movin forward and never look back" but see,tis is always the case...its always easier said than done right?and i totally agree...so Os are like OVER!!!YAY!! i guess...but then somehow it feels weird...like something is missin,jus duno wad it is..like something is gone..maybe its the whole routined life that i once had,its over...jus not used to it i guess..like now duno wad to do anymore..then everyone has something they alr got going on or someone haha...so its busy busy busy whereas i'm jus at home mostly..bored..doing nth but watchin tv,playin the com..wad a great life after Os huh???hahaha...

well...things are changin bit by bit...its pretty obvious for people like me to see since i've got nothing to do anyways...and well,i guess i wished it won't change anymore than it already has..i mean everyone has their own life,i get it..i gues i rely on my frens too much or i need them too much and its jus harder to let go but wad can i do?and yes yes..people will tell me,can always make new frens...blah blah blah...but...nevermind...can't believe i'm like emo-ing when i should be having the time of my life right now!!hahahahaaha.....but somehow,jus no mood for that..

i dun really like changed,never really did..and have yet to get use to it..but thats wad always happens everyday..changes...

so grad night is coming..everyone is gettin so so excited about wad to wear,wad to do...etc..but weird huh,cos i can't be bothered at all...i guess i feel like if i dun care abt it,i dun have to look ahead..dun have to let go of what has been here...but i dun really have a choice huh..oh well..hahahahaha...like i said..." life goes on" whether we like it or not!